Selfish Art

Gave my mind up for a
High
Every turn
I'd cheat and lie
Bruise my heart
My veins
Relationships
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In my wallet
Lets go
Get this panic started
Drinking heavy in the meanwhile
Cause every time I zone out
Get in my head
I realize all the shit that I've been putting in
Has fucked up my mind
Fucked up my life
My body
Suffers
For this art
For this enlightenment
And I drove her right away
She got sick
Of Picking up the piece's
Go out
Every night with my friends
Dropping anything
Get my hands on
Get my mind out of the rut
That I was in
Oh
That I began
And now its over
Gotta get sober
Clean my act
Did it all in the name of
Insipid
Lousy art
Thought I was so cool
Ditching school
And eating acid
Like some candy
Now I cant even keep my job
I start to panic
When we aren't busy
I've got to stop
In the name of art
My selfish art
I need to stop
I need to quit
Quit tripping shit
And melting my thoughts
My brain away
My veins complain
There sick of serotonin
And dopamine
My heart complains
Its been a bit
He wasn't sick
Of all my actions
Never prudent
Never glory
Arrogant
Gotta grow up
Start giving fucks
About this shit
Gotta get a job
Go clean my act
Rethink my time
Gotta give it up
But how
Could
I
Ever
Stop
All
Of this
My bliss
And now my contacts start to shrink
As everybody slowly hates me
I'm so lonely
Is this growing up?
Now two years have passed
And I lay here
With the
Same blue eyes that I fell in love with
And I remember
A selfish art
Was from the start
The pursuit
Of something
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