Faulty Aftermath

[Verse 1]
I wish I knew what was so wrong with me
So then I could finally fix everything
I know I bring a lot of baggage
I know I’m just collateral damage
I tried to heal from what happened
I swear I did, but I failed trying it
I don’t think I’ll ever know what peace is
I think I’m always gonna be like this
I felt like I was so close to being fine
I learned how to live without you by my side
But then came the storm, it ruined everything
I was so close, I was so close to healing

[Verse 2]
Cuts on my thighs, I just wanna be alright
I hate that I want to end my life
Thеre’s not a day where I don’t feel this way
I don’t havе anything to make me stay
Everyone notices my decline
It’s hard when you’re trying not to cry
I just wanna make it through the day
I just wanna make it out okay
I don’t want to keep going like this
I try so hard but I always seem to miss
Will I ever know what it’s like?
Will I ever be happy in this life?

[Verse 3]
I thought you were here to save me
You were so grand and came in shining
For a moment I was yours
Lost in the moment, and now I’m torn
I really thought that we would be just fine
I simply thought it’s all in a matter of time
But I was wrong, deep down I knew all along
I saw the ending when you first said “Hey” to me
I was on the right track, so it seemed
But I guess it wasn’t meant to be
Was it all just lies?
Was it just a waste of time?

[Verse 4]
You tell me “please understand”
So I say “I do” but it’s not true
Cause what am I supposed to say?
It’s not like it’ll matter anyway
How dare you say these things to me?
Then one day decide to randomly leave
How am I supposed to feel?
How am I ever going to heal?
It’s your fault, you made me this way
Why’d you come back if you didn’t plan to stay?
You made me feel like I was crazy
I don’t even think you liked my personality