Chasing

I drink and it all fades away
Anxiety peels off of me
Struggles I was so intent on fixing
Turn to dust as I erase the day

So I keep on chasing that first high feeling
Even though I know I can't sustain it
I chase it to the bottom of every bottle
Chase it to the depths of the cold, dark ditch

The moments pass, I fly toward the sun
I flood the void with endorphins
I drown the memory of consequences
And hold on 'til it all comes undone

So I keep on chasing that first high feeling
Even though I know I can't sustain it
I chase it to the bottom of every bottle
Chase it 'til I lose hold of my grip

Soon I'm worse than when I began
It all comes back in tidal waves
The lessons I thought I had learned
Is no match for the hunger to which I was born

So I keep on repeating the vicious cycle
Even though I know I can't sustain it
I chase it to the bottom of every bottle
Chase face-first to an endless pit
And feel the embrace of nothingness