grownup (just kidding)

Little do you know about what is going through my head
Sometimes i wish i just disappeared
Being a prisoner of my own thoughts
Every second keeps tearing me apart
How do i get out of this mess
I don't wanna be here
All these tears i've cried
All these jokes i hide behind
I'm a deadass grownup now
Putting on a smile like makeup
Isolation became a daily routine
So i could go and hurt myself under my sleeves
But why me
Why these feelings
Come and never leave
How do i get out of this mess
I don't wanna be here
All these tears i've cried
All these jokes i hide behind
I'm a deadass grownup now
Putting on a smile like makeup
All these tears are cried
No jokes are left behind
I'm a deadass grownup now
Putting on a smile like makeup
Hug me i'm suffocating, just kidding
Even happy kids cry, i don't know
Leave me be, i don't care
It's okay
All these tears i've cried
All these jokes i hide behind
I'm a deadass grownup now
Putting on a smile like makeup
All these tears are cried
No jokes are left behind
I'm a deadass grownup now
Putting on a smile like makeup