Pride

Prideful isn't it how I think I can do everything and anything myself
Pushin my limits daily working overtime to reach the next shelf
It's got me exhausted I'm pushing people away but I don't need your help
That's what I tell myself but I think deep down I'm begging for someone's help

Pride is something I've battled with daily
Feeling like I'm on my own to be the next jay z
I'm not talkin wealth I'm talking skill and ability
Nate my biggest inspiration I'm workin on it all clearly

Diving deeper into my mind is somethin Ive been tryna do
Doing some mental cleaning every day I find something new
Facing my emotions face to face some days I feel I lose
But I'm getting better with em I'm becoming someone I knew

I'm watchin Nate as he's handling all his fame
It's not something he wanted so what will I do in my time?
My pride is already playin strong I honestly want it to die
This mission ain't for me it's for you the one wanting to die

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride
If my message ever fails
Then I'll say goodbye

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride
If my message ever falls
Then I'll say goodbye

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride (Self pride)
If my message ever falls
Then I'll say goodbye (Goodbye)

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride (Self pride)
If my message ever falls
Then I'll say goodbye (goodbye)

I use to be weak with emotions until I've learned what they are
Better be ready to face em if you getting inside my car
Put fear in its place push yourself and you'll see yourself go far
We stronger than we think just first gotta break the mental bars

I'm learning to put away my pride to strive for something bigger
Exposing myself to engage with fans a little bit deeper
Getting real on these tracks in hopes to really feel it
Exploring the levels of my mind in hopes to get a lil wiser

Seeing these numbers goin up got me glad and anxious
I'm still gonna deliver the same message don't forget it
Fighting my habits every day prayin to God for forgiveness
Puttin in the mental work to clean up and lift my burdens

Honest I'm worried about when the fame comes
Will I hold my composure or give in to the fake loves
If I fall just take the mic from me I'm better off not makin songs
God I'm holdin on to you when the storm comes

I'll admit I've been in deep depression for a long time now
I'm workin on it every day the whole process has been slow
But I'm writing this for you too when you fall keep goin
The path is hard that's no lie but it'll be worth it I'll have you know

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride
If my message ever fails
Then I'll say goodbye

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride
If my message ever falls
Then I'll say goodbye

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride (Self pride)
If my message ever falls
Then I'll say goodbye (Goodbye)

I'm hiding behind this wall
Of my self pride (Self pride)
If my message ever falls
Then I'll say goodbye (Goodbye)