Funeral

This is a funeral
For the puberty I never had
For the relationship with my dad
For the half-assed friends who never texted me back
This is a funeral

For the girls I never kissed
For all the flirting that I missed
When I was too young and in the closet and anxious
To even give a hug
Let alone to hold her hand
This is a funeral
For the times I was black
'Cause I was scared to be a firework
Scared my sparks would cause burns
Scared my lights would leave them blind
This is a burial for 1000 lives

This is a funeral

This is a funeral
For the church folks that resisted
For the times I was convinced that
I didn't deserve love that they did
'Cause what's between my legs doesn't matter
When I die
This is a funeral
For the expectation I'll do anything but survive
This is my eulogy for being alive

This is a funeral

I'm ok the funeral's the start of healing pain
(This is a funeral)
Grief can't get me if I am awake
(This is a funeral)
Beginner's mind is how I learn to be safe
(This is a funeral)