Alone

Don't try to deny it
You can say what you want
But the fire's ignited
You can lie, you can scream
You can keep on gaslightin
Cause I know what I saw
And I know what you're hiding
I'm not trying to fight it
Does it feel real?
Is it a mountain or a hill?
You say your conscience is clear
Are you for real?
It's like the devil made a deal
You get to fuck up
Then you get to heal, oh
I got some anger inside of me
Look in my eyes and
Don't lie to me
You know you
Would've been shittin bricks
If they found out
The shit you did beside of me
If you cared and you waited
Til I could shut my eyes
Then I wouldn't be tainted
Wish I could
Ask you why
This the type of shit
That just don't make any sense
But I know it's not fair
To assume your intent
This the type of shit
That I just keep on replaying
But I know there's nothing
I could do or say
I felt alone
I felt alone
Yes, I was alone
I was alone
It's not even about the screaming
It's not even about the beatings
It's not even about the time
That you bit and choked me
Outta your mind
It's all about the walls I built
It's all about the shame and guilt
It's all about the turning tables
And the disrespect
That only I enabled
Listen, I put it upon myself
Was a punching bag
When you needed help
I became the trash and a rag
Then you did some shit
Just fuckin up my mental health
Look, I swear to God
I've forgiven you
I know you might have
Been hurting too
But to deny my reality
Means that my healing
Will not be including you
This the type of shit
That just don't make any sense
But I know it's not fair
To assume your intent
This the type of shit
That I just keep on replaying
But I know there's nothing
I could do or say
I felt alone
I felt alone
Yes, I was alone
I was alone
Was feelin alone
Was feelin alone
Now I'm not alone