An Explanation Pt. 1
[Verse 1]
Now forgive me
If I get too deep
But this is something
On which I gotta speak
Whatchu know about
The things that I've dealt with
I've been depressed
From my stress
I've been so far
From my best
A reject is how I've felt and
I ain't trynna feel it no more
I ain't trynna live it no more
Wanna change and rearrange
The ways my mind's been
Joy I wanna find it
That door what's behind it?
It's closed so
How should I know
If I change my actions
Which ones do I switch up
But as for my music
It's something I can't give up
I know that it's helped
It's what's kept me going
Maybe if I use it
To begin showing
My life and my pain
I can rehabilitate
Want thе old me dead
Try to assassinate
So I can't еver go back
No matter what else happens
Cuz he could still catch up
If I overlap him
[Chorus]
I try to explain
All of my pain
But nobody cares
(But nobody cares)
Some of it is out
But I still doubt
Anybody is aware
(That anybody is aware)
This is why I do this
It's about how I use it
(It's about how I use it)
If you don't rock with it
Then stop listening
(Just stop listening)
[Verse 2]
I want you all to get it
To see how I've been living
But it's gonna take me years
To show you all my tears
Music has saved me
I use it as my outlet
Not the plug but regardless
I don't have power without it
But you ain't ever hear
Bout my darkest times
The times that I've thought
Man I'm really dead inside
There's been too many nights
Where I could only cry, up to the sky
With my hands up, asking oh God why?
I've been crazy since eleven
But fifteen things got worse
When I started music
It's like I got some curse
Can't say it's the cause
It's a coincidence
At least I hope it is
So much time goes into this
I wanted time for me to stop
Yeah I was suicidal
Before I lived like that
I lived in denial
Don't know if I still am
Feeling so washed up
All I know I ain't do it
When the times got rough
[Chorus]
I try to explain
All of my pain
But nobody cares
(But nobody cares)
Some of it is out
But I still doubt
Anybody is aware
(That anybody is aware)
This is why I do this
It's about how I use it
(It's about how I use it)
If you don't rock with it
Then stop listening
(Just stop listening)