Demons of Cold

Why do I deceive myself
Even if it hurts inside
Why do I treat me like this
This is the time the cold begins
And the sun darkens
Who'll save me from myself
Demons awake from darkness
Where they waited and hid furtive
Their claws are sharp their words are rogue
Nestled in my thoughts
I though I had locked away all the thoughts
That remind me of all bad of this world
But now I can no longer close my eyes again
It's time to face your demons all alone this time
A damn war that rages
In a world ruled by fucking scumbags
You better find a way of endurance
Of this patriarchal destructive and violent world

And the sun shines in my heart
I save myself
From my demons I have torn apart
I found my faith

Resist
I draw my strength from my memories of better days
Where I had quality time with my partners in crime
Everyday outside in the fucking nature
Enjoy the calm before the next storm
Esteem these warm nights
Which free my mind
This is what gives me full strength
Dark times ahead
All the light is gone
That talked me down
Why does cold last so long
Demons of cold
In my specialized hell
So I just bear the raging blaze in my heart
Selflove is the way out of my infernal part
Finally the bright light returns
They clean my mess
I survived

And the sun shines in my heart
I save myself
From my demons I have torn apart
I found my faith
You must run you must run
Out of nowhere
If you want to save yourself
In this light my dreams are within reach
A new chapter begins