I'm Not Sorry (feat. Tayla Te Raki)

Look
I’m gonna give it a chance
Let the thoughts rest in my head
Cause in the morning
I don’t want to wake up with thought of horrific regret
How many times can it happen though
Lying through my teeth
To see it through the week
Every time I look into this mirror all I feel is weak
And I never do anything to change it
And I know I’ve said this before
But it’s her that I adore
Every time I’m torn I numb my own thoughts
To take away from the pain I endure
Illicit toxicity to put my mind at bay
I sit and reminisce of the happiness that I miss
To force myself to stay
Fuck I’m gonna give it a chance
Conquering anything against the odds
And fuck it I’ll leave if not
I’m just so lost
And I can’t understand it
I don’t know what the fuck to think
Because I know that she can up and leave
At anytime just to see me fucking weep
Ahh
That’s been the problem all along
I can’t leave without getting her to disagree
My opinion’s worth just as much
Now I can see what’s killing me
Now I’ve gotta stand up for myself
I’ve gotta grab hold of this worry
I can’t let her take control
It’s time to find my soul and tell her no I’m not sorry
You had my heart locked away
Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain
Love burns in two different ways
But ours started fires no-one contained
You had my heart locked away
Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain
Love burns in two different ways
I’m not sorry for it going down in flames
Opinions weren’t even worth a word
Every time I would support you with input
Seen as a chance to cut me down
Rather than receive a better output
Yeah
Your battle of truth is just a fatal and gruesome way to you refuse me
You would me hold down knowing I’d circle around
But I’ll be damned if you beat me
I always seem to retreat
Holding back my thoughts till I sleep
Every single morning waking up with the hope for it not to repeat
But I’m done feeling weak
My opinions to be heard when I speak
This is for every time you numbed me down
I’m not sorry but I’m not done with this speech
Fuck I thought we had it all
Hearts matched under god to say no more
Young love to conquer what was hushed as impossible
Behind every other closed door
And I prayed for this to last
Childhood dreams made so real
We were Beauty and Beast
Cinderella with her feet too magical to ever defeat
I’m not saying this all your fault because I fucked up and I know that
But I couldn’t see clear
I was blurred by the hope that the spark could ever come back
So with a blindfold across my eyes
I left our hands intertwined without knowing the lies
I would repeat to myself that I knew I was fine
With only faith love hope and a fucking desire
You had my heart locked away
Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain
Love burns in two different ways
But ours started fires no-one contained
You had my heart locked away
Shredded pieces knowing I was in pain
Love burns in two different ways
I’m not sorry for it going down in flames
I’m never gonna change my opinion
I’m worth more than the pawns in your kingdom
Can you hear me now
Am I safe or allowed to speak about how the fuck I’m feeling
Wait let me make things clear though
This isn’t begging I’m not wanting you to take my side
Tell me how you did me wrong and now you know it
And you just wanna make things right
It’s too late
It’s too late for that and now I know when I say my fate
Is in the hands of my traits and plays
That I plate for days
That I’m never gonna come running back
But as a last thing I have to say
I swear I’ll never forget you
You had influence on the man I am
And please know that I’ll never regret you