The Real You

It seems no matter what I do
My mind it won't let me forget you
I hate that I did everything I could
So I would please you
You never did the same
Was the arrangement to let me sleep
While you stayed up talking to her till 4 in the morning
Heard you tell her that you loved her
Through the wall
That's when I stopped hearing it
Remember when it hit 2 years
And we were off to dinner
I put myself together
Then you tore me apart
That was the routine
For you and me
I hate the way you hated me
Told me I was nothing
And that I wouldn't be enough
I really hate the way I chose
To give myself to you
I shouldn't have done it
I never would've done it
If I knew the real you
Terrible you
I'll be the one you never loved
After all the tears and blood
I fought just like a soldier
In the cruelest war
But you left me dyin on the floor
Remember when you broke my heart
While you were eating dinner
I just got out the shower
And it ripped me apart
But the real surprise
Was your emotionless eyes
I hate the way you hated me
Told me I was nothing
And that I wouldn't be enough
I really hate the way I chose
To give myself to you
I shouldn't have done it
I never would've done it
If I knew the real you
Unbearable you
Hope you're happy
Now without me
I know that you are
Just know that the next one will want
To run just as far
Left me lonely
New beginnings
They have found me now
I guess I will thank you for that
But not anything else
I hate the way I stayed with you
You told me I was nothing
And that I wouldn't be enough
I really hate the way I chose
To give myself to you
I shouldn't have done it
I never would've done it
If I knew the real you
Laughable you