Late nights near the edge of my mind

[Verse]

Late nights near the edge of my mind with a bottle in my hand but
Wrath is in my eyes, these days
I don't even got the strength to cry, tear ducts ran dry
I'm dead inside, I thought with enough time I could be better
Stop taking my meds so I could feel the weather
It's a lonely night, and the air is filled with petrichor
Sitting by my lonesome on the side of the road
Breathing slow cause my heart feels torn, always one step short
Always falling down a hole, why do I try anymore?
Try to run away but I can't escape the memories from before
Dreams every night of my ghosts from the past
Every word that I've slipped up, every friendship that I fucked up
Scum of the earth, bottom of the barrel and if words are power
Than I have no worth, climb all the highest mountains
Just to jump off, work my way to first just so I could finish last
I pray every night to a God that doesn't hear me
So I gotta try screaming
Screaming out to a world and all it offers
I'm just a lamb that was led to the slaughter
Hypocrite liars always leading me on, silver tongue smiles
With the eyes of the devil, I wish that I could move on
But I'm in the inferno, on the lowest level
Verge led me down a dead-end
And I'm tired of bleeding into this pen
Typing out memento mori and I hit send
A last dying message from the undead
A stranger living in a world filled with pus
50 miles an hour I might fucking crash the bus
Late nights near the lake
Ophelia she kissed me on my face and her lips were ice cold
Hair soaking wet, and her body smells like mold
Yet she lured me in, whispered secrets that were never told
Then she grabbed my hand flesh still rotting
With a touch I couldn't stand, and her eyes
Her eyes looked like sea shells shimmered with a hope of a soul
That she never sold and I followed her into the water
As these bubbles rose to the surface
She told me she lives down where the stones and the dirt live
I accepted my fate and the black tar I chose to submerge in
"Oh Godinho please don't be nervous"
Please don't be nervous