Holy Grail

Saturday again
And all I've done is stare right at the wall
No I can't get out of bed
It's a sunny day outside but it's raining in my head
I can't stop thinking 'bout the time I've wasted
And heaven knows I'm putting you through hell
I'm tearing down the crooked hallways of my mind
Looking for the Holy Grail
Was it something that I missed?
I wish that I could get down to the bottom of this
Is there some piece of me that makes the rest make sense?
Baby I don't know
I don't wanna be alone
I've only really been in love two times before
The first one didn't give a shit
The second one couldn't handle it
Then you and I, we took that trip last summer
I finally let you see me cry
And you said you don't have to hide
It took a year to show you all my pieces
And now I need a hammer and some nails
To put myself together just so I can stand
Feels like I'm looking for the Holy Grail
Was it something that I missed?
I wish that I could get down to the bottom of this
How many times can I say sorry for the things I can't explain?
I'm crying but I love you just the same
Sunset dreams and diamonds on the water
Where no one else can see us but the moon
Standing downwind of the pink beach roses
This place reminds me of who I am
And makes me feel alive again
But even all that beauty can't define me
I've got to find the joy inside myself
I've cried myself an ocean over all these years
That I spent looking for the Holy Grail
Was it something that I missed?
I wish that I could get down to the bottom of this
How many times can I say sorry for the things I can't explain?
I'm crying but I love you just the same
Woah woah woah
Was it something that I missed?
I wish that I could get down to the bottom of this
Is there some piece of me that makes the rest make sense
Baby don't know
Oh I don't wanna be alone