Not Ready to Grow Up

Tears fill my eyes on my special day
Fear of stigmas pushed me away
Family deserves more
I work hard to disappoint
I love them so much
But I could never give this up
I've seen a lot
Yet know so little
In my heart, I know I'm simple
The mistakes were my own
It's what I had to measure
I need to do better, we can do it together
It's hard to start the show
When you know there's no one there
Ignore your mind, pretend you're blind
Be unaware
Not ready to grow up
Not ready to give up
I've had enough
My songs will go unsung
I'll sing from up above with everyone
Killed the girl who dreamt about walking down the aisle
Paying debts back, carrying a child
Thought I could help you retire
I know that you're tired
Have everything and nothing to lose at the moment
Be patient, have faith
Coincidence or omen
I'm trying to open
As I go through the motions
It's hard to start the show
When you know there's no one there
Ignore your mind, pretend you're blind
Be unaware
Not ready to grow up
Not ready to give up
I've had enough
My songs will go unsung
I'll sing from up above with everyone
Not ready to grow up
Not ready to give up
I've had enough
My songs will go unsung
I'll sing from up above with everyone
It's hard to start the show
When you know there's no one there