​addiction

[Verse 1]
I try to change
I try to move forward
But all I do is end up back in the same place
I wanna go out and socialize
These demons internalize
They put dark thoughts in my mind
When I'm fucked up, I'm not alive
Trying to figure things out
Wish God would give me a sign
When the stars align, i'll be here all night
You won't be there when I say goodbye
That's it, it's my time
I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna say goodbye
Today's not a waste
Sleep in on my darkest days
Find a place to feel safe

[Chorus]
I still battle this addiction
I always say I'ma quit
But I keep on giving in
It's not who I wanna be
My time is ticking
I still battle this addiction
I always say I'ma quit
But I keep giving in

[Verse 2]
I'm sick of the bullshit, just let mе go
I do this shit to myself, I don't even hit up my bros
All thеy get is dial tones
While I'm here pouring another cup
Even when they show up, I'm drunk as fuck
I think they had enough
They don't even hit me up anymore
I shut that door and I fell to the floor
I've drank enough, but I need to drink more
Let me know if the drugs
They're my one true love
You want the old me, he's dead and gone
She asks, "Are you even gonna be around next year?"
If i keep mixing up this potion
Gin and the everclear
Just to kill the emotions
Roll up another blunt
That shit won't hit the rotation
'Cause I'm the only one that's gonna face it
I'm drunk, I slur my words
I know it hurts
I shut that door, i fell to the floor
I've drank enough
Let me know if it's the drugs
They're my one true love
If you want the old me, he's dead and gone
Yeah, if you want the old me, he's dead and gone
If you want the old me, he's dead and gone

[Verse 1: Repeat]
I try to change
I try to move forward
But all I do is end up back in the same place
I wanna go out and socialize
But these demons internalize
They put dark thoughts in my mind
When I'm fucked up, I'm not alive
Trying to figure things out
Wish God would give me a sign
When the stars align, i'll be here all night
You won't be there when I say goodbye
That's it, it's my time
I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna say goodbye
Today's not a waste
Sleep in on my darkest days
Find a place to feel safe
While I spark up this haze, yuh

[Chorus]
I battle this addiction
I always say I'ma quit
But I keep on giving in
It's not who I wanna be
My time is ticking
I still battle this addiction
I always say I'ma quit
But I keep giving in
It's not who I wanna be
My time is ticking
I still battle this addiction
I always say I'ma quit
But I keep giving in
It's not who I wanna be
My time is ticking

[Outro]
I do this to myself
I waste my time
I'm still battling this addiction
I always say I'ma quit
But I keep giving in