Sonya

This girl here got a sponsor
Sixty year old monster
She don't care 'bout no age though
Just whose money's longer
We both went John Loughborough
I got kicked out for conduct
Jail by fifteen
Who'd you think writ me?
First letter from Mum, second from Sonya
"Dear Justin, I ain't gonna judge you, you already been sentenced
Send me a VO, I'll come through, I got plenty of questions"
I wrote back immediately
Wished her good luck with her GCSEs
She looked up to me previously, I knows I'm good company, seriously
Years go by, contact's lost
You don't know what that was
I know ballers who could've been ballers
Who got caught up and the contracts off
I know Sonya could've been a model
Word on the road is Sonya's washed
But that's my girl, my friend, my bredrin
She showed me what a real friend is

Before you judge me
Try and walk a day in my shoes
See what you don't see
Is all the shit I been going through
It's been a long, long day
Of battling these blues
So before you judge me
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my shoes
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my blues

All these years, no sight of her
I even been to the last address
When I was locked up sixteen, writing her
Knock, knock who's home?
Must be the wrong door
Nobody I know
Awkward moment
I've lost all composure
Why didn't you tell me you left?
Why didn't you say where you went?
Last I heard you was overqualified but can't find work
Had a friend in Dubai who invited you over
And now you're like her
Last I heard
You don't even check for your parents
You just wake and check your appearance
I don't know if me checking for you is checking to you
Or just interference, but dear Sonya, I ain't gonna judge you
Won't see me in no jury, so any verdict I come to
Still gunna end with yours truly
I just wish the world didn't corrupt you
It's been so long I don't know if you know me or knew me

Before you judge me
Try and walk a day in my shoes
See what you don't see
Is all the shit I been going through
It's been a long, long day
Of battling these blues
So before you judge me
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my shoes

(This is where you just wanna disappear)
(Never told your nigga where)
(Now I think you didn't care)
(This is where you just wanna disappear)
(Never told your nigga where)
(Now I think you didn't care)

So great to hear from you
I see you've been doing good
Always knew way back from school
You were destined for greatness
I held a flame for you
Now you're setting fire to booths
Swear I've watched them all a hundred times
That shit was amazing
Tell me how kiss and chase
And show and tell
Turns into me addressing your letters to a prison cell?
Life has its hazards
Way more snakes than ladders
I miss our innocence
I miss when life made way more sense
I'm sure you've heard some things

(I'm sure you've heard some things)

Before you judge me
Try and walk a day in my shoes
See what you don't see
Is all the shit I been going through
It's been a long, long day
Of battling these blues
So before you judge me
Try and walk a day
Try and walk a day in my shoes