I Wish I Had Been Born As the Rain

I was talking to your brother in your driveway
I was watching his nervous hands shake
My mind went dark
And I wish I had known you better
But I was out of place but that's nothing new
Some things never change
My mind stays dark
But I wish you had stuck around
Maybe you just knew something I don't know
Maybe you knew when to walk away
Now I'm 'gonna force catharsis
I feel I need to feel, I feel I want to feel
It's not my strongest suit but it will do

How calloused have I become
Are these my emotions or are they memories of things I used to feel
I wish I had been born as the rain that forms rivers that carve out canyons