It's Come To This

And I found my head uncrowned and all life's sweet nectar flowing down
the cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers
And I
reached up for despair but I was well below that charished stage
and all my mangled hopes all songs unsung

I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded
Smiles are fabricated now
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Held my eyes closed for too long

And I ran out through the streets in hopes that I might find it there
but all my buildings stared back at me tentantless and bare
and I
reached up for the sky, but it always seems so far away
transcendent thoughts you gave lie to atrophied and broken

I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded
Smiles are fabricated now
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Held my eyes closed for too long

And I sat when I should have stood; swallowed when I should have spit
until now I only recognize me in pictures taken long ago
and
all the changes simply haunt and never go away
a friend will tell when I hit hell, I may not feel the change

Held my eyes closed for too long
Held my eyes closed for too long

Just before I go don't you offer any sweet advice because
where were all your shoulders when I needed them for so long ago
and
now with legs weak and weary from this silly dance
with a suitcase full of memories, pack my bags and slowly drift away