Father forgive me

(Instrumental)

[Pre-Verse]
(Father forgive me for the things I do and the things I see)

[Verse 1]
Father forgive me for the things i’ve done
I just need a little rain in my sun
None of these people be playing, but I'm praying
That you know what your saying half the time
Don’t know what you do on a motherfucking daily
I just wanna get through this and love my family
I’m trapped in my room doing nothing but rapping
Feeling the heat of the moment is so intensifying
I seem to have no reason to wake up now
Half of my family’s gone and I took a fucking vow
Person after person I talk to about my life
I don’t feel accepted that’s why I have some strifе
Blame everything on mе is the logical thing to do
When you have a problem just take it out on me
I’m in chains so what’s the point in being free
No one will be there for me when I become famous

[Pre-Verse]
(Father forgive me, I know I did wrong, I know I'm doing unusual things at my age, but this is the only way for my message to get out there, and I hope you can forgive me)

[Verse 2]
No one believes in me, and everything I make
My depression always saying to stop rap for my sake
My brain ache, everytime I wake, I always got to take
Pills, but they just reduce not go away, they a fake
I never take my medicine cause what’s the fucking point
I just stay in my room and hope I don’t sneeze
Or do anything that makes me look like I'm at unease
I just hide in my bedroom and get down on both knees
Why do I feel love in myself, but I ain’t no narcissist
I’ll resolve things in a bloodier way, but i’m a pacifist
I wanna fucking believe in someone, but i’m an atheist
I wanna do something, but i’m a fucking isolationist!
Why are people fucking forgiving me
Why are you always fucking helping me
Why do you care so much about me
You would give me everything and I have nothing

[Ending Part]
(Father forgive me, I know these words are true, and I sing them with horror and anxiety, but why do you pick me up, I want answers god I want answers!)