Letters

We used to write each other letters
Such beautiful letters
And every time I'd see my name in her handwriting on an envelope
My day would get a bit better
I didn't forget her
How could I ever forget her?
But now all that's left on my desk in the dust and neglect
Is some envelopes, empty as ever

It's a terrible thing to share everything that you've got
With the one person who matters
And have it not really matter
We used to write each other letters

And then one day you dried up
Just imagined you were kinda tied up
God only knows I didn't want to impose
So I just bit my tongue with a stiff lip
Until it was far too late for me to even contemplate
Writing again just to ask where you'd been
So I guess we just settled on stalemate

It's a terrible thing to share everything that you've got
With the one person who matters
And have it not really matter
We used to write each other letters
It's a terrible thing to share everything that you've got
With the one person who matters
Have it not really matter
We used to write each other letters

Yeah, goddammit now, this wasn't part of the plan
I let you down, but please understand
You have to bear with me if I'm fucking this up
Because the truth is I'm useless at opening up
Both of us know it wasn't love in the end
You were more of a teacher, a distant best friend
I've been missing our missives, and mourning our youth
And if we got on the phone, we'd tell each other the truth and say
"I'm tired of just making do, I'm tired of just muddling through
Aren't you tired of making do? I'm tired of muddling through"

It's a terrible thing to share everything that you've got
With the one person who matters
And have it not really matter
We used to write each other letters
But it's a curious thing to doubt everything that you've got
Get saved by a stranger
You knew when you were younger
I'm going to write another letter

I need to try and put it better
I need to try and put it better
I started writing you a letter