Sobering Truth

Used to move aggressive don't u know that I was sectioned
Mum dialled emergency services must of broke her
My dad and brother had to pin me to my sofa
Decided I need further help my mind is not cosha
I grabbed a taser off the Feds n tried to shoot em up
I Thought my brother was the devil like he lusifer
I went lost my mind an crazy didn't know who To trust
Diagnosed me den ejected me like a computer does

I got cuffed an carted off but not arrested
Like How dyu break it to your mates when u bin sectioned
2 many days they had me up in there wid nutcases
Wanted me on meds to calm me down tru I was frustrated
Can't have me sittin in chairs like I'm vegetated
Found myself alone in rooms I was meditating
Brought myself back to Life I was excavated
Started off with weed paranoia then it escalated

Pain in my brain I try force it out my tongue
It's feelin like the matrix cah dey tell me I'm the one
I don't feel these other rappers like I'm supposed to
I just go hard all in my zone and fam I flow truth
Started at the back I'll win d race cah I Wernt built to lose
Feel the ute he tells the truth like cmon man what's up witchu
Tell u bout my life events I wish u witnessed
Beggin me 2 rap say I'm the hardest in my district

In an ambulance Feds either side of me
Mother sittin dere crying tears at the sight of me
They had to fight to hold me down Bcah I lost the plan
They tell me don't stop cz Ull go far now I got proper fans
Been onda street since I left comprehensive
Went college den I dropped it like its hot to get the d pence in
My mother told dat she Ill she don't like workin either
Dat made go a lot harder so she can retire

All them nights I had to ride in side
Ina single cell u man ain't had a life like mine
I jus throw dese raps together I been hard from time
Half these other rapper shit but they just got co-signed
They should rate me like grm daily
Flows too smooth like a half pint of baileys
I do this rap an probably one day they gon pay
Until then I be licking all my cats like its eighties

So if dis industry gon sign me hurry up
I get nicked wid parcels den its back to jail & its just fucked
Kiss goodbye to Freedom I'll be back to bangin up
Cz Jails like a sauna wen u can't wait to get up
Locked in a box like a cretin
10yrs before I told em I was guilty I hope u get it
Early guilty plea still got me a seven
& dey handing out tag for early realease u can forget it

Heard my fathers fighting cancer made my brain worst
S'why I pop these mad pills to contain all the hurt
Real talk, last time we spoke, we was arguing
Ain't spoke to dat man since feel to talk to him
I jus vocalise the things that are scary to mention
Tell u all about d things man are failing to mention
I fear that if he pop his cloggs Ill miss the time lost
I'm holding grudges we ain't spoke for like 9 months

But listen every time I'm rappin
I only get i half of the story out about what happend
Now I'm feelin like I never reach my own potential
They don't believe the words I wrote in all my raps den u can check credentials
I just talk a lot pain dats what dere feeling
Went noodles outta a packet staring at the ceiling
2being freshhome felt excited like' was dreamin
I guess the crazy thoughts inside my head are just the demons

I rate my mother to the moon an back of course bro.
She travelled up an down to prisons and them courts so.
So ima do this legal ting for her.
Went self employed a year back still around D curbs
Aye my dons are ridin bids like it's an auction house
See d depression in my face all when in walkin bout
If your feelin real rap dis what u talking bout
They ain't feeling me I'll head for the exit what's to talk about

Mana tellin lies like its factual
& All deZe Bitches say they love u like its actual
Okay ur talkin hard but really could u back your talk
Ur trying hard to fit in, me dont give a fuck at all.
Dey tell me shake d depression ur doin so well
I just look at them like oh well
Cause I got pain stuck in my torso like its chest hair
We get it poppin like balloons man don't get scared

Went from trap blocks wid fat rocks
To self employed cz dats hot
Would these brudahs ride for me like ascot
Nowadays I'm rappin let me interlude
1000 other people rappin but I tell d truth
It's all from my thoughts if I mention curbs
Box me off still I'll coffin dodge like a pensioner
Start to understand my life has been domestic
I try to paint dis picture for u dawg but it's just hectic

If the devil shines light into my eyes I'm epileptic
Still I put this pain down on page like dyslexic
SB want a up session I wrote a madness
Dramas in my life would make your belly do a backflip
Talk but not the same in real life we call dem catfish
Dropped d first vid they said im real man cz I don't chat shit
Now This probably be the realist shit I wrote
Now They put my words inside commas like a quote
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Old friends say they feeling me gassed over the phone
But I hardly ever see them face to face and that a joke
Dem man R screaming bouts dey day 1s
But half of dem hit court they'd be singing like dey trey songs
But they listen to my music
It gon touch them ... And they gon feel me like I'm rubix
I'm outta Birmingham a quarter full Of jewellers
Bull ring for tourists an Chinatown for losers
U losing money every time to go dere
Casino or the night life will tax your pocket like old chairs.