Hero

Used to think my nightmare when I was asleep
Now I'm up at night makin beats
Reminiscing
Sad to say I don't wanna go back to bein children
And the feeling's chillin
My memories they take up too much space
And I can't even finish off my plate
Somethin's missin
I don't get nostalgia all of the trauma be hittin
Make me feel like quittin
But I stand up still cuz I have to
My minds a vacuum
Collectin all the pain that attacks you
For the people that I love I'd be glad to
Step in front of a bullet just to be seen as a hero
They'd say I lived life in the fullest and then my worth wouldn't be zero
But then I know my family would miss me
So I keep on livin

The pressure that I'm under is immense
Why would I seem so tense
I'm anxious really
Sense my stress and see my eyes I'm fearin
Somethin that I can't explain for me it's not appearin
Isn't that appealin
I'm afraid of things I can't be seein
From my own mind I be fleein
I don't even got a reason
And even if I did I can't explain
The way I take apart it in my brain
But I can feel it
Shake myself off the path appears my steerin's veerin
Cloudy mind is clearin
Why's myself gotta be my biggest hurdle
Have I not tried just to be who I am's returnin
All I did was lie at the time just to stop concernin
Everyone I liked in my life they won't see me hurtin
I closed my mental borders like a prison
Locked out I couldn't listen
My force field blocked the sound without permission
Remorse led me to doubt I started hearin
Advice from all the people that I always had around me
It's nice to see that someone saw me helped me when I'm drowning
The price I put myself stopped the falls I'm surrounded
By a group of people I can involve in my bounty
But I'm not gon be countin
Imma keep on makin songs in the mountains
Compilations of my thoughts and my challenges
I can't turn my motor off I feel valiant
Drawn to light just like a moth my mind forever balancing
Nature helps me keep it off the horrors we're surrounded in
I don't know the place to put the fault we've all compounded it
Try to help some people that aren't grounded grounded

Used to think my nightmare when I was asleep
Now I'm up at night makin beats
Reminiscing
Sad to say I don't wanna go back to bein children
And the feeling's chillin
My memories they take up too much space
And I can't even finish off my plate
Somethin's missin
I don't get nostalgia all of the trauma be hittin
Make me feel like quittin
But I stand up still cuz I have to
My minds a vacuum
Collectin all the pain that attacks you
For the people that I love I'd be glad to
Step in front of a bullet just to be seen as a hero
They'd say I lived life in the fullest and then my worth wouldn't be zero
But then I know my family would miss me
So I keep on livin