Wishes

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m off the shelf
what do i know?
how do i grow?

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt
i wish i was somebody else,
how should i know?
why can’t i grow?

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m on the bench,
what do i know?
how do i grow? (how should i know?)

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt,
i hate the feelings that i’ve felt,
why do we go?
why can’t i go?

i can’t find the truth,
i can’t find my noose,
hands are tied, i won’t lie,
don’t know what to do,

there’s no halo,
and i feel fake, though,
saturate, what i hate,
and it’s fatal,

i wish i felt like my body wasn’t so heavy,
i wish i felt like my feelings weren’t so messy,
i’ve got a lot on my plate, i’ve got a lot on my mind,
not enough time to debate, not enough time to deny,

i wanna love her but i feel like i’m just breaking her heart,
i wanna meet matt champion, but i’m always too far,
i wish this felt like a game, but it just feels like a start,
the start of when things fall apart, time to restart ay,

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m off the shelf
what do i know?
how do i grow?

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt
i wish i was somebody else,
how should i know?
why can’t i grow?

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m on the bench,
what do i know?
how do i grow? (how should i know?)

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt,
i hate the feelings that i’ve felt,
why do we go?
why can’t i go?

my wishes are hazmats,
save me from myself,
feeling like i had that,
feeling like im dead,

i wish that i had that,
i wish that i felt,
grateful for my past, past,
grateful for myself,

ima just say “fuck that”
ima just give in,
wanting what i’ve never had,
drown in all my sins,

wanna know a fact, fact?
don’t know where i’ve been,
wanting what i’ve never had,
drown in all my sins

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m off the shelf
what do i know?
how do i grow?

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt
i wish i was somebody else,
how should i know?
why can’t i grow?

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m on the bench,
what do i know?
how do i grow? (how should i know?)

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt,
i hate the feelings that i’ve felt,
why do we go?
why can’t i go?

i don’t respect what i’ve been dealt,
i’ve played my hand, i’m off the shelf
what do i know?
how do i grow?

i hate the cards that i’ve been dealt
i wish i was somebody else,
how should i know?
why can’t i grow?