Fallow

Hollow gaze in your eyes
Our fallow days didn't survive
I followed your imperfect plan
Carved for your "better" man

And I fell
Farther than
You could tell

I see how
I see how you see me
I see now
That we could never be

I reach out
For hands to hold
And smother
Love until it's cold

You're everything that's keeping me here rather than running away
And in the throes of confusion, your smile forces me to stay

Some days I try to find fault where there is none
By night I feel your pull and know you've won

But as I watched the door shut behind you
As the night eclipsed our sun
I thought
Maybe I should have run

Everything we had was broken
Recognizing all your faults
This is better left unspoken
But I'm savoring our fall

Lingering on ended moments
Madness wears the guise of love
Everything we had was broken
Everything we have is done