Better Off

I've spent December dwelling on the subject of our demise
I've found no sane or salient argument contrary to your being right
As the evidence overwhelms me I tear down my lie
That I could rise above this
If only I tried

If you're better of without me
Then what the hell am I?
Are you're better off without me
Don't tell me why

I hope we get in trouble tonight I hope it lasts (I hope it lasts)
We're moving forward from the prologue of our life and so we pass

From something current into memory
At once I start to grasp
The truth that all this is temporary
Someday I'll forget your laugh

If you're better off without me
Then what the hell am I?
You're better off without me
Don't tell me why

I wanted to tell you that things would get better
That I could forget her if we stayed together
But we both knew
It was not true

There are things that I can't change about myself and it kills you
A coldness I reflect that makes me sorry it's me who
Exhausted you
I know that I let you down

If you're better off without me
Then I won't even try
Are you better off without me?

There are things that I'd like to say like I'm sorry and
I understand why you couldn't stay but I wish you had