Am I Ever Gonna Change

I'm tired of being me,
And I don't like what I see,
I'm not who I appear to be
So I start off every day,
Down on my knees I will pray,
For a change in any way
But as the day goes by,
I live through another lie,
If it's any wonder why

Am I ever gonna change
Will I always stay the same
If I say one thing,
Then I do the other
It's the same old song,
That goes on forever
Am I ever gonna change
I'm the only one to blame
When I think I'm right,
I wind up wrong
It's a futile fight,
Gone on too long

Please tell me if it's true,
Am I too old to start anew,
'Cause that's what I want to do
But time and time again,
When I think I can,
I fall short in the end
So why do I even try,
Will it matter when I die,
Can anyone hear my cry?

Am I ever gonna change
Take it day by day
My will is weak
And my flesh too strong
This peace I seek
Till thy kingdom comes