Tha Glow

You deserve to be disappointed.
You chose tha glow.

It's tha disease you get to pick
Tha only cure
you made tha choice to reject
I see it on your face
You're back from that place
You promised never to go to again
Another year of tha same shit
I don't know where you are
I don't know how you live
And it's still so hard to believe
You chose tha glow over everything

I've tried so many times
To figure out what I should do
Tha same bliss you're drowning in
Is tha hell you've put me through
Apathy is eating me alive
For what you won't face
From what you've always tried to hide

It's tha disease you get to pick
Tha only cure you made tha choice to reject
I see on your face
you're back from that place
You promised never to go to again
Keep repeating tha same 12 steps
You're just playing tha game
Why will I care who you are
When you can't even remember my name

I love you
I've never meant anything more
But I will not continue to let your choices
Leave me torn
So sorry
It took so long to say goodbye
Time to realize
That you don't want to be alive

This "isn't who you wanted to be" huh?
I never sleep
And I know you're tha reason
Night terrors turned quick into seizures
I guess I get it's sick
to get to take a break
When it heats up
[Defeat what?]
Always awake and I feel it
Tha glow wants my life
And they'll try to steal it
You play tha hand you're dealt
You love when they deal it
Heart stopped bleeding
Your beating won't heal it

I held on for so very long
But I won't stay to watch you die
I can not fight this for you
But God knows I've fucking tried

Second chances
Second comings
Second thoughts of
Who you're becoming

You brought this on yourself.
You brought this on yourself.
You brought this on yourself.

I understand...

Addiction is a choice.