Negative Habits
[Verse 1]
My soul is a cauldron of hate bubbling through
The stakes of life are higher than ever
I no longer have nothing to lose
A wimpy kid with hard luck
Back to dealing with the ugly truth
I know it’s shit, I should harden up
But you can’t when you’re stuck in a loop
Seeing my own destruction before me
Can’t say I’m loving the view
Cleaning up just to do it again
What the fuck can I do?
I was such a cheerful child
Guess I must’ve lost touch with that dude
Cos now I’m so insecure
I thrust to conclusions and jump and assume
Had a weight on my back
Wasting the baggage I had
The universe dealt me these cards
Damn right, I’m about to just snap
If I do snap at who ever I let lose at
Whatever the new trap, you can bet I’ma get through that
[Verse 2]
I won’t fall hostage cos previously it’s costed
And immediately combusted
I’m in desperate need of a locksmith
To copy for me the key to being an optimist
And teach me how to pack bombs with each of my demons in boxes
But for now I can’t stop
Tryna strangle the situation and never taking my hands off
Desperate to choke the gong
Even more so to muffle the drum
Can’t you see that I don’t belong?
Born a rational motherfucker, I’m done
I know I ain’t the only one who can’t soldier on when stuck in a rut
But one day I’ma erupt and blow up and go beyond up and above cos
[Verse 3]
I ain’t nothing but hearts and flowers and a ball of tissues
I never depart and cower
Gotta solve all my issues
Tryna fall in love with the man that I’m gradually morphin’ into
Done a lot of bad, nothing wrong with that
But this EP is all a tribute
Makin’ tornados outta nothing
I can feel it – the self-doubt is coming
Began as just growl in the back of my mind but now it’s rumbling
Didn’t intend to take an L
I surely didn’t take it well and began raising hell
[Chorus]
I remember the havoc
There’s no forgetting it happened
It’s so repetitive, it’s definitely a negative habit
Tried ending the static but started to descend into madness
Every event is dramatic because of my negative habits
I remember the havoc
There’s no forgetting it happened
It’s so repetitive, it’s definitely a negative habit
Tried ending the static but started to descend into madness
Every event is dramatic because of my negative habits