So Many Nights

So many nights I pray that this would just... stop...
I woke out of my sleep from the sound... of a pop lock
My heart would drop to the ground
Maybe the fact my pops wasn't around forced you to find
These guys that would just knock you down or beat you around
(I dont know) my innocense was lost back then, not to be found
And in a sense its like this world was just weighing me down
Leaning its weight hard on my shoulder's
Making my heart less warm and much more colder
Chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulders
I told yall that I dont play... I see that drama every god damn day
So go ahead yep yab away... cause now you got alot to say

CHORUS:
Cast your judgements, cast all your stones, holdin my hand, holdin on to everything I have
Because its slippin away soo fast and its all I have...

I was like six then we ain't have a pot to piss in
While most kids lives consist of shine and glisin
Mine was lined with mischeif... a boy flippin
Devoid the times you find joy or reminisin
Its like time was pissin, years was passin... I was inside
While kids was out side laughin... no time for games
They fake toy planes was crashin, while me my life was crashin
At night fist fights left my moms face smashed in
Her mans blasted... threw her down a flight of stairs
Alone and scared, I stared in eyes of men who didn't care
My father was never there, now I am prepared for this lifetime
Thats unfair, just like my fight from the bottom to the top
Just like I had to fight for all that I got, it hurts but I still won't stop
Until my casket drops

CHORUS X2

So many nights I pray that this would just stop
Just stop... just stop