Why?

Why would I want life eternal
When I don't even want this temporal life I have now?
At crossroads I stand between infernal
And a glimmering hope to keep me on the ground
Constantly fighting a war internal
At all times these devils seem to surround
So go and throw me to the furnace
Let me set ablaze and burn it all down
I
Can't get
Out this time
The sky
Seems so finite
This is not a call for help
This is a reflection upon myself
Death
Death to myself
Death to the world
Bring me to hell
Bring my lost soul
Away from this place
And rest my skull
In angels' wake
Take me from here
Take me home
I don't want to be alone
Take me high
Take me away
Let me die
And there let me stay
Why would I want life eternal
When I don't even want to be myself?
Why would I stand for the future
When all I can see from here is hell?
Why would I give up my existence
To serve a cause that only brings shame?
Why would I ever expect
For anyone to remember my name?
Why?
Why?
Why must it be?
Why?
Why?
Why do this to me?
Why?
Why?
Why must it be?