Crusade

Why am I supposed to be here?
Why am I supposed to be ok?
I don't get it
Who am I supposed to smile for?
Good intensions at a toxic place
I am walking away

When my feet get cold and sore
And my knees can't take no more
Then I know I'm getting closer

And braver, bigger, better on my own
My mind will fight me through this crusade
No pain, no gain
No I stay strong
(And) no matter all the ache
I will get there anyway

Is it really me that's leaving
All that's left behind without regret?
I don't get it
Heavy feet and heavy breathing
Drip-drip, what is it?
Tears or sweat?
(But) I keep walking ahead

When my eyes just see the ground
And I only taste my cotton mouth
Then I know I'm getting closer

And braver, bigger, better on my own
My mind will fight me through this crusade
No pain, no gain
No I stay strong
(And) no matter all the ache
I will get there anyway