Break Down

Lend me a cheval and watch me dig up the surface
Let these feelings and emotions buried in me awaken
Been frustrated for so long I don't know where to start
No one to talk to but myself so the shit stay inside
Bottled up waiting to spill out on this paper
Been caught up with the world for so long I forgot they were in there
Been piling up for a while I can't take it no more
Ain't even sure if I know how to address them no more
Still ima try even though I'm not high
Or got an ounce of liquor inside me to keep me running off with the mouth
This ain't a song this is a sneak peek into my soul
Like "Catching Fire" man I let this shit burn
My only concern is can anybody relate
I'm zig zagging through life while the world keeps straight
I'm trying to learn how to appreciate the smaller things in life like
The nature of a flower as it grows and blooms
And brings more color to the world we live in
Cause everybody talking black and white like
They watching television shows in the early 50's
To much shit up on my plate so I sit and write
About whatever it don't really matter
Long as I get the shit out and it makes me feel better
Cause its the only therapy that I'll agree to
I'm looking at the world like the shit is see through
Before I break down I need to get some shit out
I won't cry so I gotta let the song cry
Can't overwhelm myself with emotions
Gotta keep moving with the motions
Before I break down I need to sort out my thoughts
They run deep so I gotta let the song bleed
Can't overwhelm myself so I let them fly
Before I drown too deep in them
Before I break down I need to get some shit out
I won't cry so I gotta let the song cry
Can't overwhelm myself with emotions
Gotta keep moving with the motions
Before I break down I need to sort out my thoughts
They run deep so I gotta let the song bleed
Can't overwhelm myself so I let them fly
Before I drown too deep in them
It's funny how when you are a kid you rush to get older
But when your older all you dream about is being a kid
The only worries that I had were are my boys coming out to play
Or writing up a list of who's invited to my birthday
And it's sad that little boy is gone
Never to be seen again look how I've grown
Look in the mirror all I see is a man who've adapted to a fucked up world
Ain't even got time to think about the shit that made me
Shit is crazy it done made me hasty
I used to be humbled now I'm addicted to a lifestyle
Where everybody's hostile
And all we think about is fucking money
So easily deceived we believe anything
Just put it in a book and tell em it's god's will
Power beats change any day of the year
You holla revolution with the same mindset that built this system
And as I sit and observer
Can't help but notice how depressing the shit had me before
Obsessing over the news wishing all politics would die
Stressing over who's a mason and who isn't
Like the shit could do me any better if I knew
My life was blurred like a foggy window after dew
But as I whipped it away I realized
That life is just perceptions on perspectives homie
Before I break down I need to get some shit out
I won't cry so I gotta let the song cry
Can't overwhelm myself with emotions
Gotta keep moving with the motions
Before I break down I need to sort out my thoughts
They run deep so I gotta let the song bleed
Can't overwhelm myself so I let them fly
Before I drown too deep in them
Before I break down I need to get some shit out
I won't cry so I gotta let the song cry
Can't overwhelm myself with emotions
Gotta keep moving with the motions
Before I break down I need to sort out my thoughts
They run deep so I gotta let the song bleed
Can't overwhelm myself so I let them fly
Before I drown too deep in them
Yo
Don't be waiting on a savior
You waiting for someone to free you
Free yourself free your mind
You waiting for someone to save you
Save yourself homie Ay