The Choice

[Verse]
You say I got a choice on how quick or slow I die
I'm already there, how could you cope with my life?
Keep throwing fists, tryna demonstrate ya lies
I done been through worse so I laugh as you try
When considering the other side, I start to realize
The past can't bring them back no matter how I try
When I finally see you, I will let you know why
I live in the moment even when we say goodbye
Then suddenly a moment of clarity arrives
I am barely awake but still conscious at the time
Enduring this struggle, but I know that I'm tied, up
Love to see me suffer, guess you feeling satisfied?
Reflection of the self-hatred bleeding from the man
Empowering the monster inside me, that I am
"Keep throwing ya hits big shot, here I am...
This what makes you hot? This what turns you on?"
I spit blood out, I got 4 liters left
Are you getting tired, then why you need to rest?
Intuition whisper: pay attention to reactions
Observe every move, you will know when it happens
He slowly walks towards me, about to set the tone
To finish me off, because I refuse to atone
Tryna keep me fully awake so he'll enjoy the ride
Staring me into my eyes, the moment I rise