LOVE IS A NIGHTMARE

On my own time
I've been on my showtime
Love got me on a loop
Traumatized, drinking out the booze
Hanging out, I been watching every step
Had to learn that I was happy on my own
Intoxication was the mess
Depression gone, it's my heart that needed rest
Broken pieces left behind, in the past
Where they casted all the spells
Testimonies couldn't help you
I was there to help you, love you
Demons left to curse you
I was never perfect, no I never meant to hurt you
Dealing with the consequence, I was lost
Nightmares strolling down my path
Shadows walking in my room, I was terrified
Spoken words, left them on a hill side
I was in the middle seeking out the trails
I was deep into my soul
I could see the misery, blooming up my home
Don't tell me how to go, I could see the lie the most
Good demeanor got me two faced
Days flying by, sun down
Got me feeling like I'm boutta hit my last breath
Momma cried, poppa lied
All projected in my life
My heart torn, I couldn't figure out the bitterness
I couldn't mourn, I couldn't feel
I'm seeking my emotions that I never healed
It's the only thing my father cultivated at a young age
He told me love wasn't gonna pay the bills
Shit I had to learn to digest
Yeah