Mind of a Crippled

Stomach's paralyzed, but can't even masturbate
My body's terrorized, energized but exacerbate
They accelerating, but my legs are crippled, weight tripled up
They saying get up, but I was born with tumour, so fed up
So, spreading rumours, call me loser, weakness developed

Ankles shattered, my life is scattered, so my life does matter
I see them running around, looking down, lifeless and dead
Floppy and no power, but I'm receiving so many flowers
Wanna flow like a tidal wave, wide awake and grow like a blossom would

My family's disappointed, this pain it's annoying
Penis deformation, I can't avoid it nor destroy it
When my night is long, head is stiff
I might go along and jump off the cliff
Please god forgive, my life defines negativity
I wish I could piss, bones weak, prone for the disease
moan to believe beauty can be relieved
Ay, ay

I struggle to get up, so fragile like glass tile
unresponsive, wish my legs didn't drive me fast wild
Man, I try to wake them up. No response, I'm just a trashed child
Move to a position, prove there's no definition, "Hey smile!"
"It's not even mild" lachrymose me turning tears to the sky hazy, wow
Cause you know tom and jerry ain't in the fairy tales, in reality now

So, end em' like venom, a parasite. Paralyzed, Fahrenheit low
like no nervous system, no flow, uncontrollable where they go
Wish me my disability would go, inability to know when this comes to an end

There's no use of amends, bruises transcend, An abusive of end
Loses and then, Ruthless friends be fake and pretend

Being' ruthless, call my fluid legs stupid I guess
Wounded and ruined boy, this life is a mess
Swinging off the wheelchair, my legs are barely alive
I wish I could feel here, will these even get revived?

So concentrated, looked down, a constipation
It gives me hatred and aggravation, stop my hesitation
My legs are a maniac, they mainly lack attraction
A Brainiac in action, in fact, man just fraction of erection
This pain is infinite
So hot like it's hell, sent from it

My slouching body, I've got nobody
I'm watching, God he an anomaly
I'd rather knife the pain than live a reckless life
Maybe find love, why is my life a breathless fight
Is this life a pleasant flight or a peasant fight?
Thoughts sporadic lost control, had it
Disconsolate addict, too late to have it
Ravaged cabbage, cells, and muscles, I lack it
dismantled decisions deceiving disabled me
Feel my shattered heart, feel my scattered art
Child prodigy, soggy tees feeling like Johnny wee

I fuck with the flow, but I can't let it go
But I'm slow with the dough, so let me cope
But I rode with the cold, and I fucked on your hoe
Made her moan, that ain't me, too irrational

Just wanna fix me and make my family proud
Leave the world saying oh wow
Life is hard, but I know that I'm harder
Making lemonade outta lemon, it's so sour