Hated Seeing You Cry

On your upstairs unit hallway-that's where this would all end.
Where the fatal words would land.
You were vulnerable at the time. I thought better you than I.
Cause I didn't want to change and I hated seeing you cry.

Harmless fun. We'll set like the sun.
And on and on the fish still come. Swimming upstream is never fun. Fighting for things I didn't want.

I was never meant to love you.
I just loved the feeling that I got when we'd fight and I'd leverage myself.

I remember when your father called me and told me to stay away.
I'd probably do the same for you.
But still I could not not accept you'd left.
I'm lingering and ignorant cause' I still didn't change and I hated seeing you cry.

Wasting time. Watch but don't ask why.
And on and on the fish still come.
Swimming upstream is never fun. Fighting for things that can't be won.

I was never meant to love you.
I just loved the feeling that I got when we'd fight and I'd leverage myself.
Our veins twisted with each other. That's what probably cut off circulation when we thought we would grow together.

We thought we would grow together.
They got tangled in the end and the words we left unsaid only made it so I'd miss it.

Harmless fun. We'll set like the sun.
Still on and on the fish will come. Swimming upstream is never fun. When you don't know what you want.

I was never here to love you.
I just loved the feeling that I got when we'd fight and I'd leverage myself.
Our veins twisted with each other. That's what probably cut off circulation when we thought we would grow together.