A PLACE OF DESPAIR

They just told me to watch my step
Cause all your friends out here don't really love you
This is something I must confess to you
I wish you the best
And nothin less
I wouldn't put death on you

Cause In the end
I never wanna go back to that place again
Lift my chin
I came from the depths of hell
But trynna win feels like a sin
Freed my mind from the spell
They tried to put on me as a kid
I had to suffer by myself
They don't know what I went through to live
It was cold in my mind
Anxiety creeping up my spine
But I get nervous bout the little things
Burn my feelings in a paper plane
And I swear I got a heart of gold
But sometimes it don't seem that way
Sometimes I wish I was a heartless soul
But God know I don't swing that way
I'm surrounded by death
And blood stained roses
Politicin posers and all
It feel like cardiac arrest
When my chest is closin
In on me for the moment
My enemy was myself

They just told me watch my step
Cause all the ones you endear don't really love you
This is something I must confess to you
I wish you the best
And nothin less
I wouldn't put death on you

Prayed on my downfall they hated on me
Even when I was little I swear to god I had niggas banking on me
Even with my flaws nigga I had broads
I let em think they know me
But I told em don't hold they breath at all
Cause nigga im right where I need to be
And you gon see
How I came up
Im a angel
Spread my wings
Gotta keep that thang tucked
They armed & dangerous
In these streets
Don't care where you came from
They'll light yo brain up
Till they see pink
It's a shame
My story won't be the same
I can't D I E
I used to put it on myself
So you can't place the blame on me
I was doing right till it all went left
Till my white teeth turned burgundy
Nigga I still got so much on my chest
When I confess it make me feel weak
And I still got so much on my plate
For me some days it's hard to eat
They told me watch out
For the ones
That might bring you down
Watch out
For the ones
That ain't in yo crowd
Watch out
For them boys
Envying yo style
They might try to be like you but it ain't workin out
They can't compare
I made it from a place of despair
I'm too rare
The struggles that I overcame ain't fair
And I swear
Won't let em talk on my name again
I'm too player
They won't knock me off my game again