I'm Trying

She said I'm not pointing fingers
He said yes you are
Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't
If I told you I've been walking out in the dark night thinking
Would you take this truth this alcohol is worth
Oh I can't change what's done is done
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying
No I haven't kicked the demons that haunt me
I'm trying
I'm trying

She sat down on the floor
Said I wish that I was stronger
Right now I feel as fragile as glass
And I want to believe you believe what's held you has freed you
And I hate these doubts that keep on coming back
My parents think I'm crazy
For staying here this long
But there's nothing more I want for us than to prove to them they're wrong
I don't want to be afraid I don't want to think you're lying
Though I haven't found the faith that I need
I'm trying
I'm trying

He asked do you want me to leave
Cause if you do you know I will
But she said much to his disbelief
No I love you still
Oh I love you still

He said I don't know why I've been the fool
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were crying
He said I haven't been the man I want to be
But I'm trying
I'm trying
Oh I'm trying
Oh I'm trying