Reflections

The family I had has crumbled in the palms of my hands
I didn't even have the chance to say my last
Goodbyes to them
The memories lie in the midst of darkness
I witness the fall of a man
Fixated on the reflections of my anguish
I walk this endless goddamn line
And know that I won't get to feel again

Putrify the sense of hope that I have lost in time before my eyes
Replacing progress with only troubling sights that
Crucify the last remaining lives that have surpassed the rising tides
It's just the making for what we seem to think is right
Before the time must come we have to question our existence
Mystified by all the vacant lies that have approached before my eyes
Replacing progress with bitter feelings of remorse

I've never felt so alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call my home
All the people I've loved are gone descending me into the fires of desolation
If I could turn back the hands of time
I would have changed and lived my life right
All the stars would align to show
How it was meant to be
And how it would have saved me

I refuse to see the day that I will be stricken
Downward
I am only a man
Consumed by darkness and engulfed by regrets
Death entices an internal struggle

All the times we could have had will forever be sworn by secrecy
Intermit my only chance to say all that you really meant to me

I refuse to make myself believe
In everything that seems so serene
This complication proves that immortality lies in the heart of the beholder's mind

But I have nothing

Running blind from deprecating mind sets
And I swear I'll get my fucking chance
To find my own way home