Still Be Loving You

She rocked me back and forth 'til I quit crying.
she looked into that baby face of mine
and in an angels voice, she sang this lullaby
until my slumber carried me into the night.
"I'm grateful for these moments with you child.
I know you're only mine to borrow for a while.
soon you're gonna want to crawl away.
it's in your nature. Its just how we were made.
but I will still be loving you"

She had wished for us a normal family life
but 4 became my brother, she and I.
Times were hard for us but somehow we got by.
She was fearless through her tears and sacrifice
I had to grow up much faster than she would have liked
but when she knew that she had taught me wrong from right
she said "go on, I know you need to move away.
childhood is manhood slightly delayed,
but I will still be loving you"

I left home to try and find my way
Like a blind man feeling his way through a maze.
I love and lose befriend but not betray
because the things you taught inform how I behave.
In my darkest hours when I am afraid
or I'm not sure that I can take another day
I remember the one promise that you made,
"If the whole world shuts you down it'll be okay.
'cause I will still be loving you"

Now that I'm a man I realize
what a gift it has been to have you in my life.
Your spirit is young although your body is tired
and soon for good you'll have to close your eyes
the years around your body like a weight.
I guess that too is just how we are made,
so when the angels come and carry you away
may they whisper in your ears, my serenade.
I will still be loving you.