depersonalization

Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who's the realest of them all ?
Looking at myself in the mirror
Losing sense of self just keeps getting clearer
This body isn't me, I know I am something bigger
But who is it who knows ?
The answer's somewhere deeper
Lookin' at myself
And my self ain't going higher
Lookin' in my soul
And my soul ain't goin' either
All there is is me
Not every cell or every fibre
Every thing I am aware of is the only thing in matter
If everything ends, why does anything matter ?
This spiritual path was supposed to bring me answers
But the questions are arising
And the mountain I was climbing
Is a tunnel where I'm crawling
In the darkness, deep I'm diving
Ain't no lighting, really I don't feel shit
I'm all alone up in this bitch
Do I even want kids to grow up in this shit ?
Never asked to be born and I'm supposed to make you proud ?
Yeah I'm talking to my father, many traumas left unfound
Many traumas left in me
With which I don't deal peacefully
So I guess this is them in me
Hunting me, killing in me, fighting me
Winning me, taking me, using me, leaving me,
Illing me, filling me, stripping me of my own identity
I don't wanna live a steady life
So much left for me need to realize
I don't wanna live by the gun but my foes are
No hoes or woes gonna help me out
I don't wanna live a steady life
So much left for me need to realize
I don't wanna live by the gun but my foes are
No hoes or woes gonna help me out
Lead me home
Lead me home
Lead me home
Lead me home
Oh lord live inside me
Lead me on my way
Oh lord live inside me
Lead me on my way
Oh lord in the darkness
Lead me on my way
Oh lord in the darkness
Lead me on my way
Mmh
Oh lord heaven's waiting
Open up your door
Oh lord heaven's waiting
Open up your door
Oh lord live inside me
Lead me on my way
Oh lord live inside me
Lead me on my way
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lord lead me home
Lord- lord lead home
Lead me home