Just My Thoughts

It was a great year in my life
It was specificaly difficult, but I can't decide
Moments, love, people, flowers
Movies, memories, power, sin, pain in the chaos ah
Love is al about giving
Sometimes you just gotta let it hurt
Calm, think twice, mask on, fake smile
Mask off, fale love... forgive it
Wanna scream "what the fuck is wrong with you world?"
I was open too. But believe it eazy for me to stay cold
I was too open it was eazy for me to get hurt
The world makes it fucking hard remain the soft
Just my thoughts
I dont care if you believe or not
And wouldn't really care if you would think that Ima psycopath
And I Don't wanna pray to God
Cuz aint sure he's got an answer to this to that yo
Just my thoughts
Sometimes I feel like I'm destined
Demon have possessed me. The life is fuckin testin me
And I feel like I'm the question
But all my fucking life I couldn't find a fucking answer
Just my thoughts
Everything in life comes in two
Love and death, pain and joy, salt and sugar, me and you
Just my thoughts
Inside of me a Demon Lucifer, whos trynna help me keep
The balance of the fucking universe
Just my thoughts
Stranger become friends and freinds become strangers
So you'll meet somebody else
Just my thoughts
Ill be forever in my mother's arms
The place where i need to write a book to say "I'm sorry mom"
Was a never meant to stay forever?
I know exactly that the pain comes before a pleasure
Life is short, I aint know. How da fuck i measure it?
Im in pain, Im in cave, please somebody rescue me
Family say
I deserve better, but I know
In ma head, all the shit, that I've done
Please, I dont wanna smile
Wanna live, dont wanna cry
Dont wanna die, dont wanna talk about it
Cuz I got only a few on my side
Its like a switch
My feelings there, one day they aint
Don't get me wrong I want to love, dont wanna play no games
Its like a switch
My feelings real, but I'll hide it
Cuz aint got no time to give for you to play with mine
Its like a switch
Its not a love song, its not like this
Just my thoughts and a lil bit of what i think
Its like a switch
You could say I'm craving depression
Just trynna get an answer for the motherfucking question
What is this?
This depression, mental health or drug addiction?
I need help, I need strength to get up and end a mission
End the war, end the pain, end the love, end depression
And I wish on every star and every fuckin constellation