Dear Diary

All these thoughts
Are haunting
In my head
You're still the best

Why doing shit and then saying sorry
Only when you're fucked up I see your glory
I failed exams I hate proving my worth
I can't adjust to things that don't work

Even though I'm grateful, I don't understand
Why you keep being with me, I'm those who left
I liked your black T-shirt, it fitted with your hair
I'm going clubbing, even though I'm scared

All these thoughts
Are haunting
In my head
You're still the best

I write down same things every day
It's like samsara
But only pouring that out of mind
Gives my nirvana
Neighbor asked me to repair her new iPad
My cousin went to Harvard, pretended to be happy

Riding car with strangers
Don't care where to go
My salvation is packages
That I ordered on Amazon
I'm running towards you
Lusting to get more
I feel like we will meet one time
But now I am not ready though

All these thoughts
Are haunting
In my head
You're still the best