Plans

Just ain't been motivated
Couldn't get out of bed, I've been stuck inside my head, trying to wait it out
But nothing seems to help, I'm just letting down myself, be happy be belated
I control my future, I control my music
But I'm stuck inside the past and I don't feel like making music
Where you hiding the remote, I need something new to watch
Swear I checked like every cushion, and this channel kind of sucks
I just need some interaction, a little we time
Lately the only action that I'm getting is from me time
And all we ever stress about is how we need some more time
But all we do with that time, is bitch about the lack of it
And dig ourselves in holes, then can't get back from it
And say things we don't mean, cause we get mad from it
And if I give you everything I have, that ain't the half of it
But I ain't keeping track, just running miles
Ran a marathon the other day, because, why not
Painted most the crib because the walls were closing in
Couldn't stack the deck, so I've been stacking minor wins
But it still feels like a strike-out
Hate it when it's nice out
Love it when we make plans, and then we make some more plans
And then we make some more plans, until we never hang out
Then try and make some more plans, but know that we won't hang out
Because we're just not motivated
And everything feels overrated
And everything feels overwhelming, nothing ever fits right
Nothing ever works out, and nothing ever sits right
And no one ever talks about their feelings or is honest with themselves
And so we wait on other people to make it feel right
Living for the short-term, letting all that debt build
Adding up that baggage 'til we can't afford to sit still
But can't afford to leave our situation, so we stressed out
And try and sneak that luggage on a plane and get rejected at the gate
And so we breakdown
Everything is fool's gold
Everyone wear fake crowns, but me I like to rock mine to the side, like I'm MJ
But I just ain't been motivated
I just ain't been motivated
Even with the beat too, found a loop and flipped that
Added me a bunch of other shit but nah, forget that
Cause I just ain't been motivated
I just ain't been motivated
There's nothing left to prove here, nothing feeling new here
Nothing but another fucking person in a crowd full of people just trying to figure it out
You're either in or you're out
I'm feeling out of my element, feeling like I might drown
I'm feeling hotter than ever, but feel like yelling for help
Might be a little dramatic but feel I've acted forever and this a role I know well
So I'm gon' finish it out, I'm just gon' bet on myself
Fuck it, I might go broke, but I'll just fix it myself
And I might end up where I started, but I'll know all them routes
It seems like shit can take forever, but I want that shit now
But probably take that shit for granted, so I'll wait for the bell
And it's been such a year already, trying to figure shit out
But when I stop and look at everything I have, I guess I have