Not Used To

#VERSE1
Not used to being judged
You look at me, I feel naked, naked
You tell me that I've grown fat, that I have to change it, change it
But I feel good in this body
I shouldn't worry about that when I'm 14

#VERSE2
Then you put me on the scale (put me on the scale)
You need to lose weight
That's what you told me, I cried
I barely had time to breathe (barely had time to breathe)
All night until morning i cried
"It would be nice if next summer you were ten kilos less"
Then you lеft

#CHORUS
First time I feel anxiety
First time I find mysеlf too fat
First time I see you in my mirror
Last time I felt happy for four years, for four years

#VERSE3
Two months later
Ten kilos less (ten kilos less)
You tell me it's better
You find me prettier

#VERSE4
Nine months later
40 kilos less (40 kiloss less)
I'm lying down, down, down
In the hospital

#VERSE5
That's what I see
I can only hear you
That bad little voice
That keeps me away from you, that keeps me away

#VERSE6
That's what I see
I can only hear you
That bad little voice
That keeps me away from you, that keeps me away

#CHORUS
First time I feel anxiety
First time I find myself too fat
First time I see you in my mirror
Last time I felt happy for four years, for four years

#CHORUS
First time I feel anxiety
First time I find myself too fat
First time I see you in my mirror
Last time I felt happy for four years, for four years

#VERSE7
Dad doesn't understand me anymore
Mama cleans up the mess
My friends walk away
Just me and that reflection of you