Heaven or Hell

Am I in heaven or am I in hell
The world two sided I can't ever tell
Left all the drama right back in my cell
Society hate that I'm doing so well
They don't want to see you shine
Still dealing with shit in my past
I just told her to give me time
Trying to get what's mine
I'll cut you off do the dash
I'll be waiting, just give me a sign
I'm on my way to the top
And they see me be working
So they trying to hitch a ride
All the effort I put in, I did on my own
I ain't giving no hand outs
I'd rather die
I ain't giving my plan out
Because I come from Jersey
You tell them your move, that's like suicide
I'm like tell me how
Everybody think that they a gangster
Go ahead and choose a side
Go and cut her off
I had to choose to stop
Got to run up racks
I can't loose the guap
I got up out the streets
Like, I've been choosing god
I had to lose the feelings
Because she do a lot
Ink my whole body
Because I got a story to tell
And some I already forgot
When I walk through the lobby
Forget that I made it through hell
I'm just trying to get to the top
It be test after test
Well I guess got to kick up a notch
After top, I'ma tell her kick rocks
Blow it all when I hit up the shops
And I make it all back
Coming in, it don't stop
Coming up never got no support
I dropped out of school
I ain't got no awards
Off my ass, like I got off the porch
I started hustling, got to get more
Like, go hit the block got to foil that
But I never found me no joy in that
That ain't who we are
She broke my heart
And I grew to a man from a boy with that
Heaven or hell, I can't tell them apart
I shine bright like a light in the dark
All these distractions are making it hard
God on my side, so I'm making it far
Your mind could make heaven of hell
Or hell out of heaven
However you look at it, gonna be a lesson
Before I leave earth
I'ma leave an impression
Anxiety kicking, I beat the depression
Like I'm trying to make it out
It's an obsession
(Yeah)
(Like, I'm trying to make it out)
(It's an obsession)
Am I in heaven or am I in hell
The world two sided I can't ever tell
Left all the drama right back in my cell
Society hate that I'm doing so well
They don't want to see you shine
Still dealing with shit in my past
I just told her to give me time
Trying to get what's mine
I'll cut you off do the dash
I'll be waiting, just give me a sign