Push & Pull

I don't know if this is gonna work out with us
I know what I'm capable of...do you?

Now that I feel alive
Rather have pain then to die
Even though I said I'm fine
In my head I'm feeling contrived
All the thoughts and the tears
Face to face with the mirrors
I was lost to my peers
But the cost was all the years
Met the girls of my dreams
And the whole time it was an illusion
It isn't what it seems
She was drunk mixing the collusion
Love doesn't always last forever
Cuz I've seen it in the breeze
Love is cold like the winter time
Killing everything and leaves
There is too much of the malice
Unresolved problems no challenge
All my next steps are to balance
I'm a king next to the chalice
I just channel how I move
Manage if I lose, I get through
But the next choices I make
They just don't involve you

Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me

Even though that I tried
I don't feel like I'm alive
When I'm feeling all the guilt
Then I see that I've been lied to
It's just something that I just ride through
Seeing you reminds me of all the fake that I found true
Making wakes when the sound moves
See you fugazi
Don't act like you've been Gandhi
When you give me ultimatums
Treating me more like a Nazi
Shutting me down
All of the times
That I've been loyal
That I've been down
Tried to change you
What did I find
That's who I am
All by design
Still empty, trying to find it
Something to feel accomplished
What are my other choices
When I'm sinking and drowning
If I make the right choices
Cuz I can't rewind it
When you point it all out
Then it just gives me all the reminders

Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me

Man I feel the confusion from all this dissolution
We dissolved a while ago, now it's distance and abusing
Shouldn't feel misused, when the choice is what I'm choosing
I learned to push past, but when I see you I lose it

Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me
Gooooo
Won't let you, Don't let me, Won't let you, Don't let me