Captive

It's time to have this conversation my love
I know, I know it won't be easy
A misconception, a fatal flaw
It's gone and spun the rails around once more

So I'm captive in this darkness with a story to tell
I've gotta know, gotta know if where I've been decides where I'm goin
Oh I'm carrying the shame of all the stupid shit I've done
And I gotta know, gotta know will I survive?

The moment couldn't last as everything must end someday
I watched you going with the smoke, gone
A palpitation of breaking hearts
Content to just burn out and leave the world behind but I'm still

So I'm captive in this darkness with a story to tell
I've gotta know, gotta know if where I've been decides where I'm goin
Oh I'm carrying the shame of all the stupid shit I've done
And I gotta know will I survive?

Can I join you in the smoke forever?

Get up, get out of here and get over it
(stay here, you're cumfy lying on the floor)
Why don't I do something about it?

Turn that shit around and have a real story to tell
(maybe if I) I've gotta know if where I'm going will be what I long for
(Why am I) carrying the shame?
But we've all got stories to tell
But if you gotta know, gotta know
I'm happiest when you're gone