3am thoughts

Back against the wall
It's time for me to go and try again
Night begins to fall
As I begin to wonder when
The evening will come
When my head hits the pillow
My thoughts won't run
And my breathing slows

Down
And these thoughts begin to pour
Out
The weight is heavy on my brain
Now
Pen and ink mixed with the doubt

Here's the list of my regrets
Here's the things I should've said
Here's the things you didn't know
Of what I was scared to show
Are you proud of what you read?
So I close up the journal
And set down the pen

The stars start to fall
As my mind begins to run again
I'm tired of it all
Anxieties plague my mind and then
It all just builds up to
Reach a crescendo
Then the music fades as a
Tear hits the pillow

Rolling down
And these thoughts begin to pour
Out
The weight is heavy on my brain
Now
Pen and ink mixed with the doubt

Here's the list of my regrets
Here's the things I should've said
Here's the things you didn't know
Of what I was scared to show
Are you proud of what you read?
So I close up the journal
And set down the pen

Here's a list of my regrets
Filled up journals on my bed
Here's the words I wanna say
But it doesn't work that way
Overwhelmed inside my head
So I close the journal
And set down the pen