Ego

Fasten your seatbelt
I feel there's some things that need discussin' with my ego
So just bear with me
Now that I'm legal, it's my responsibility to turn away from evil
But just bear with me
Couple things that I'm not proud of
Never been a coward, but I'm deffo guilty of some carelessness
It's a discussion with my ego, even though we go to war, he's my amigo
You can bear witness
Keep it one hundred for my heart
I'm smart, still I've been walkin' in the dark
In the night, I hear you bark
And I won't lie, it's been hard
Though I keep you in the garden
Just remember you're my dog
And this one's deep, deep
The kinda deep that makes a tear roll down your left cheek
The kinda deep that makes you feel insignificant
The kinda deep that makes you look around and feel real weak
On my life, I might just need a second
'Cause the truth is, I was so reliant on you
I was feedin' you before I fed me, I was dyin' on you
Not sayin' you changed, I'm sayin' I went quiet on you
What do you do when your ego turns to a giant on you?
Like I was there the day you made us cheat
I seen it all, I seen you steady pullin' off them sheets
Then you threw them on the bed, had them callin' man a beast
For a moment of pleasure, we made a heart bleed
Like I was there, but I was scared to speak
'Cause you make yourself destructive, and I didn't need the heat
Like I didn't need the drama, I just wanted to be free
That's why I got into the business of speakin' over beats
It was me out on them cold nights, graftin' in the breeze
It was me out on that old bike, peddlin' that cheese
Like I'm the one that dug the hole to bury all them Ps
Like I'm the one that's diligent, the one that thinks he's me
I feel like you're dangerous, and your anger's not controlled
I feel like the pain has put my confidence on hold
There's no doubt that you're popular, they know you on the road
But they don't know me, they only know what they've been told

Watch 'em boy, watch 'em boy, watch 'em boy, watch 'em
Down boy, let me do the talkin', don't touch 'em
Bad boy, anytime I'm eatin', stop watchin'
When I throw the ball, fetch it
I really had to train my ego, I really had to train my ego
I really had to train my ego, I really had to train my ego, yeah

Hatin' niggas like to say we changed all of a sudden
I had to be myself, I had to train all of a sudden
And when we started holdin' onto sticks that weren't wooden
We had to leave the gang behind, I know how much you love it
But the roads don't love us
And what's the point in anything, if in the end you never feel the lovin' of a woman?
And the dough can only get us the freedom of our children
It's my job to make sure you don't destroy what we're building
It was me that turned up to back it when they broken in
And it was me to learn to box, you just learn to break a chin
And it's like you only turn up when it's time to soak it in
I'm the one that's stacked the blues until they turned to pink
You're my dog and I love you, there's no two ways
Now I got the beige LV print on my suitcase
Even though we used to hold our jeans up with a shoelace
I smile more now, you should get used to our new face
There's things I need to tell you now, it's time to be at ease
But first, please forgive me for my vulnerabilities
The things we had to go through once brought us to our knees
But now I'm strong, I need you to believe in me, please
It's like I don't want to fight about it
I have to be one hundred, I can't lie about it
I've got to be an adult, I can't cry about it
Even tough these tears should be tattooed I feel kinda dry about it
Chattin' to my ego, I have to keep it frank
We don't need money no more, we got plenty in the bank
No excuse for hurtin' people, instead just let them hang
Unless the threat is direct, I don't give a damn
Like I don't care that people really want to see us fall
Like I'm the one that's thinking straight, I keep us on the ball
There's no room for error at this level, let me talk
You're my ego and I love you, you will always be my dog

Watch 'em boy, watch 'em boy, watch 'em boy, watch 'em
Down boy, let me do the talkin', don't touch 'em
Bad boy, anytime I'm eatin', stop watchin'
When I throw the ball, fetch it
I really had to train my ego, I really had to train my ego
I really had to train my ego, I really had to train my ego, yeah